You become responsible forever for what you have tamed ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Little prince: “what does tame mean?”
Fox: “To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world [..] But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..“
I loved the quote that stated You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. I have a cat named Anitachie. It’s a stray cat in my boarding house. I tamed her for almost a year. First of all I gave her cat’s biscuit and I hide somewhere to watch over it. I moved a little closer everyday until I could reach and touch it.
Last Sunday, my colleagues and I visited Pejaten Shelter. We had planned for the visit since two months ago and due to our domestic bustle, we just made it yesterday. The main reason why we decided to visit our little friends was because we loved everything with paws and most of all because we concerned about the life of stray animals.
Yesterday, while I was walking aimlessly near Senayan, Jakarta, I accidentally met an old acquaintance. We first met like maybe 3 or 4 years ago and separated with communications only over Skype. She asked me how I had been then we shared our stories and so on and until a shocking question was raised “Did you get invited to T’s wedding? He’s going to get married in early December“. When I heard about that, I had a sort of mixed feeling, I mean maybe that was the worst kind of mixed feelings that I had. So, I grabbed my phone and checked on my email and .. I got the invitation to his Holy Matrimony.
Just suddenly, I had that pterodactyl feeling in my stomach. “Really? Is the wedding for real? Is it true he’s getting married?“. I stared to my email for few minutes and after the last sip of second glass of green tea cappuccino, I finally realized that it was real. Well, actually I thought I’ve got over him but I have no idea that I still cannot get him out of my head. Have you ever had this kind of feeling? You think that you’ve got over your Ex but turns out, his shadow is still dwelling inside of your heart and maybe it leaves a stain that cannot be erased.
Still related to my previous writing A Visit to “Monument Pancasila Sakti”, while i was in the Torturing Verandah, i saw two women wax-figures inside the old house. They were known as GERWANI – Gerakan Wanita Indonesia [Indonesian Women's Movement].
There were some stories that I heard when I was a kid, that women in Gerwani were trained to torture our military personnel including gauged their eye balls, cut male’s private organ and ate it, slashed one’s body and mutilated. Inside a mind of a 7 year old little girl, of course it was a horror, but there was a slight of sanity inside of my mind that said: “Is it true? Did they really do that?” Further, there was also a mockery that if a woman was independent and loudly spoke their mind, that woman would be labeled as Gerwani. That’s not cool, huh? Instead, I don’t mind to be labeled as that.
One of the woman who are Gerwani
Last Saturday right before the Indonesia National Heroes Day, I visited the Monumen Pancasila Sakti or Lubang Buaya for the very first time. Monumen Pancasila Sakti which I visited with a friend is located in East Jakarta. The Monument became the living evidence for what had happened in September 1965 when seven high-ranking Indonesian military personnel were brutally tortured by PKI. This Monumen is a must visit place for all Indonesian or anyone who are interested in the bloody incident of G30S/PKI (30th September movement of Indonesia Communist Party).
Traveling is one of my resolutions this year. It is now one of my favorite activities besides painting and paper quilling. Gretchen Rubin, the author of my favorite book the Happiness Project once said, “When u do new things – travel to a new place, meet new people – you’re more apt to be happy than people who stick to more familiar activities”. Traveling does put a little spark in my life even though it requires money. So, I recalled from what my mom told me “Just go wherever you wanted to go. You’re still young and carefree”. By following the advice, I save some money for vacation. Lucky me, the company where I’m working with never bothers my vacation as long as I’ve completed my responsibility before I leave.
In the next three days, I will be a lone wolf. Yap. I’m traveling solo. Excited? Absolutely. Today I’m heading to Singapore. This will be my first time alone in Singapore.
I booked round trip tickets about a month ago. I (again) need some “me time” away from friends, relatives and traffic around me. I will be staying in a hostel. Yap, it’s a hostel. This will be also my first time to stay in a bunk bed and share toilet with other people. The reason why I’m staying in a hostel is because I want to experience another side of this life. I want to be a part of a female solo traveler from around the world. I’m sure it will be awesome. Continue reading